Just an update
Why Lady Quixote? Cos I'm fighting illusions and delusions and invisible, tricky friends and enemies but nobody knows! So while my naive (so-called) ancestor fights windmills, I fight more serious problems like feeling ignored, being over-enthusiastic to make friends and to make up the past, over-caring about people, and over-trying to make things better in my life Well that's exhausting I should say, because none of the above does really exist in the real world, I just create hallucinations about some guys and I got sad when I see that I'm the only one who cares, but I just cannot learn not to do this over and over again; in certain periods I just have this feeling on and off and I can't stop that. So like fighting windmills, I start to fight people around me or simply I start fighting against "myself" and I don't get anywhere while involved second parties do not know anything. I just need to let it go sometimes eh? Oh those old memories, all they do to me is harm. Maybe my only problem is that I cannot accept that nobody's the same -including me-. Oh details, details...

Aaaanyway, the point is:

1) Life is using a menthol shampoo, yep. I'm really serious... I can easily put a solid philosophical metaphor behind this to prove my theory -_-

2) I wish that memory erasing system was true, a few of you would certainly receive that damned letter saying "Speira had her memory erased and we would be pleased if you do avoid her to prevent complications" and I'm really sure that you wouldn't get your memories (which include me) erased because you do not care, even a little bit! Oh by the way, I (with this obvious level of stupidity) surely would not destroy your logs and such on the way to clinic and I certainly would one day come across your files to create my unlucky cycle again to be your biggest fan and get ignored etc. But that's typical "me", I just cannot give up on things which I once cared about waaayyy too much.)

3)So, mentioning Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, I say (according to its tagline) "I'm fine without you" (but not for long I must add; I always did and will have this stupid feeling and this urge to relive our history "today" but of course it is not going to happen so I will start fighting again blah blah blah)

So, what should I say; I know half of you twice as well as I should like, and maybe I don't like less than half of you half as well as you deserve; and the rest...For the rest that I love even more than you have ever imagined and that surely exceeds your deserved value and true price... Ah a no-no for an economist huh? You be careful about spending your love folks, efficiency is everything -_-

I bid you all a very fond farewell!!

P.S.: Uh by the way, I'm going to live in France in 2008 in case any of you haven't heard about it yet, so yep, it's your independence day; nobody will care about you anymore Enjoy!

P.S.2: Yes I'm the girl screaming at the bar I just can't help with it...I'm decibelly-challenged (over-loud) and I love to sing